Well, as eager as I may have been, the ol’ bones were not so. The juices took some time to get flowing, the furnace some time to get warm and therefore the joints, muscles and tendons some time to let go and allow me to move, albeit slowly, through my practice.
What also took some time, was me convincing myself… or shall I say the gentle voice inside my head, when it was finally able to make itself heard over the mean, nasty critical voice inside my head, convinced me after several turns through less than energetic sun salutations A and B, that I could pull back. That it was quite alright to take it slow. Let everything move at a pace it- I- needed rather than that which I’d have preferred.
That takes some doing, I must say. Outside of a vacation, and even then it can be questionable, what with all the activities we tend to plan… we are so not conditioned to taking a step back into ease. Into letting our bodies say, through their tension and tenderness, ‘go gently’. Closing the door to the judgment of our own minds and expectations and allowing quiet and serenity through instead.
We are far more inclined to push forward, ignoring the signs and twinges, in our quest for the ‘challenge’ that is often synonomous with yoga, and the ‘workout’ that yoga, in our 21st century fast & furious frame of mind, has become. Also, as with many of us, I enjoy the feeling of pushing and challenging my body in yoga in the seemingly unlimited ways it can do so. It’s an activity in which my body typically accepts, embraces and responds to pushing further… hence it’s one I enjoy the most.
But sometimes in yoga- as in life- the challenge comes in stepping back, embracing ease. Consciously saying, and accepting- that with this general feeling of lethargy, I will pass on my powerful sequence today and enjoy some balance. Perhaps, with this little twang in my lower back, I might better enjoy some gentle focus on the core.
I’ll revisit this all again in my practice tomorrow… but today I take satisfaction in having done it… and listened.